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thanks for the memories. though they werent so great

2008-10-21T23:21:00.004+08:00

haha. who wld've expected? who wld've?? well. i just felt damn unjust. why am i deserving this type of treatment? what i did was wrong but was it worth that kinda treatment? it really wasnt a pleasent feeling at all. i felt so much like breaking dwn. but i just cldnt. too many things.. hais.. maybe im realy not for this society bah. i just wanna live.. cant i live happily with my girlfriend? y cant i just live in peace. i hope evrything is just so worth it. it really pains me. who relly knows who really knows? im not just a punk. im not a bad person, just bad luck. i guess its just the cruel-ness of reality. what happened., who knew.? who felt who i felt? those who saw. they know wad im goin thru? hell no! i just feel suddenly wad im doin might not be worth it bah. so many troubles so many headaches. i just have no mood for anything now. life seem so grey and black. humiliation. no different form a bully. but who really understands? im really speachless. suddenly school wasnt so safe anymore. wads sch alrdy? i wanna quit sch. i wanna live my life. im hurting more inside as each second passes. haha. i guess thats god's way. thanks alot. i respect u. Fuck you.

13o9o8

2008-09-13T01:40:00.002+08:00

its alrdy like 1.40am. and im not one tiny lil bit tired.
so many things in my mind right now... (seems like things are alwaes on my mind huh.)
just cldnt get some sleep so decide to blog. played dota but the game wasnt so fun anyway..
heart's just so heavy. examinations approaching alrdy. starting on my maths but not making much progress. sometyms i just wished i did listen in class and did my homework. but its easier said then done. giv me a chance to go back in tym i'll still be the same. school's just too boring. with everyone against u. when u seem the same way towards them.. i shant descibe wat happened or who. but things for me are just tough i guess.. sometimes i wonder if really standing up for myself is something wrong. standing up for my friends is an offense? haha. ya.. fighting is bad in the eyes of the law huh? i know. so poor lewis has to face the music la? haha.! aiya nvm bah. things are more then often against me. studies, school, people... stereotyping. who really knows who i am? only duck quacking and chicken backsides blabbering about me.. am i that bad a person? that people sldnt know? hais. maybe im just a thug a hooligan bah.. 'those who uses the fist shall be overcome by the fist.' someone big told me that.. i guess the society just isnt for me. haha. sounds selfish huh.. so i have to fit in? at wad cost? losing one's personality and character to fit in? i guess thats wad every1 is lor.. so fake. pretending to be friends infront but backstab at the back. one minute ur praised another ur comdemned. i admit i do say people's flaws behind people. but i do tell they themselves too.. does it count as backstabbing? here i am pointing at people but in the end pointing back at myself.. im tired. really tired..
what if i dont make it? retain again? or quit school?
answer is.. i dont know. retaining sounds like a waste of tym man. been wasting 2yrs in sec3 and was telling myself that i wld learn my lesson and study hard. but its alrdy the eoys and wad work have i done? haha. no heart gets no results.. if another year can knock some sense into me why not? but wat if it doesnt? quitting school sounds good now.. but then my future will not be a very clear and bright one.. when i was younger.. i thought i cld be a doctor, a lawyer.. or get som job of profession earning big bucks driving posh cars... but now that 'dream' seems so far and its not wad i want. so wad if i earn money? wld i ba happy? working long hours but no time for myself.? i dont know man. maybe when i get a family then i will know wat the meaning of 'need' and 'want'. i may not get wad i 'want' but its wad i 'need' that is important... thought about my dad. is he happy with his job..? hm... maybe..? maybe not.. who knows? but one things for sure. he has to work to keep the household running... HEY! we're drifting away frm the topic.!ya... eoys.! i guess what i can do now is try my best for the next 2 weeks studying bah. lets leave the rest for the future..

3oo8o8

2008-08-30T09:29:00.003+08:00

its been quite long since i last blogged..
and so many things has happened in the last 2 weeks...
trouble and more trouble.
fighting. quarrels. problems.
now things have been made so big.
i dont know if i can make it..
hmm... hope everything wld be alright bah...

ytd had a lil tiff.. i dont wanna quarrel darling..
everytime we do. i feel so so sad...
i alrdy am. i dont wanna affect u.
so many thing i dont know how to tell u. i wish to tell.
so many worries. just so many..
things hav just gone out of hand bah...
ppl whom i thought were once there werent there anymore..
i guess this is the fact of life bah...
i didnt regret anything. just regret letting u noe me bah...

haha.. just feel it so amusing..
tired of this carp alrdy..
want this to end fast...
i just feel so so tired and wasting my time over nothing.
so many people. so many friends...
hahaha...

darling. im sorry...

2008-07-07T23:41:00.003+08:00

today was a tiring day yet a very eventful one.
this is how my day went,.
met her at 10 at yck. had breakfast beside sch..
slacked around till 12 then headed our way down bishan intending to catch a movie.
met seinaung and migaa there.
we wanted to catch the 2 pm slot but in the end was too rush for it.
then bought the 4.30 one instead.
we had plenty of tym before the 4.30 show. then we 4 doofus peeps went around j8 sight seeing...
went almost every shop in j8. had fun lor.. :)
then went food junction i think. to have lunch.,
then hurriedly rushed off to catch 'hancock'.
actuali wanted to see 'the happening'. but dont hav at bishan GV
then in the end decided to watch 'hancock'.
it was quite an enjoyable movie actuali. :)
aint that bad,.
after the movie, dear was late for hme. headed our way to yck.
seinaung and migaa waited for me at yck while i sent her hme.

love sending her hme man. :]

then after that went back to yck where guanru and weiling met up with migaa, me and seinaung for dinner..
ate prawn noodles. actuali didnt wan eat that derh.
but wanted to use my torn dollar note hurriedly then just ordered lor.
had dessert after that. yummy :p
slacked for awhile before heading our seperate ways back hme.
i and migaa went to the mrt.
then who wld've expect that i wld meet weiseng.,
tagged along to jackson's hse to watch some tv serial.
after that cabbed back hme..
darn beat now... :o zzZ
tired.. wanna sleep le..
its already 12am. dun feel like goin to sch.. :(
but also wanna go sch., :)

your wad i go to school for.,
iloveyouCassie<3

2008-07-04T23:07:00.002+08:00

today didnt go well as planned bah.,
just came back from khatib.
so many things happened today.
reali tired lurh,. worn out man. need a break.

firstly my pocket money had been docked.
its alrdy like so little ardy lah. hais.
stupid phone bill. $90+ for 2 mths le.
1 more mth means cancel line man.
tts why now using prepaid. money money $.$

so many things happening lurh.
alwaes on the go.

friends around me seem so different.
so untruthful. so... nopt transparent.
everyone's like ME ME ME.,
i guess people do change bah.
to fit into society.
peer pressure,
friends,
trends...

studies.. been put pressure alot on.
high hopes placed. expectations to be met.
she's like so concerned abt us lah.
when we all thought she was this naggy, noisy, demanding and unreasonable teacher..
she's reali trying to giv us teens the needed push.
though i get her intention. i still feel lazy studying man.
honestly. who likes studying...
for our own good they all say...
but.. saying is 1 thing, doin is another..
the effort she puts in helping us,
extra class, tuition, enviroment that we love to study in...
she's incredible lah., she treats us like her own.
god bless her. :] greatest teacher i've seen.

didnt get to meet her today. :(
but thats okay bah...
i understand girl...
i love you.,

2008-07-01T20:32:00.002+08:00

okay.. my butt hurts like alot can??
today 'ponned' school coz i've got an aching butt,
went with my dad and my dad's dad to the bone setter.,
my ahgong had his massage and then i had mine.
pain lei! wah lao. that guy no mercy wan. tell him pain still press harder. :(
then went my grand's hse to hav lunch.
dad den fetch me to sch to get my uniform.
got the photos from her, thought she looked great in the pics. :]
rahh. thoughout my leg ached like fu*k okay?
now im darn bored.!! tmr still got poa test.
hope can pass. :]

i miss her so much lah., :(

loved the time we spent together :]

29o6o8

2008-06-29T20:56:00.004+08:00

i cant believe im actuali back blogging man.,
been so long since i've last blogged..
but for my baobeii, i've come back into this 'business'.
been out practically all day.
mingyan came my hse in the morning. actuali wanted to catch a movie,
but in the end found out engwah doesnt have the show we wanted.
but anywaes, we went khatib to do some STUDYING...
(dun be surprised kae, im guai derh^^v)
done poa homework. then headed to carpark to spend some time slacking.
guanru, esaint, seinaung, megaa, weiling, tinghui, mingyan and me!
so many people today man.. rare rare..
and seinaung sprained his ankle while trying to kick megaa...
hope ur okay seinaung.! :p
had fun. ;]
ate alot for dinner.! bakkutteh and xiaowanmian. full!! *.*
then chatted for awhile about christianity. O.o LOL!
so much to talk abt man.. xDD
headed home after that coz hp no batt. wanna chat with her. ;]

2008-05-29T02:05:00.001+08:00

im trying.. reali trying real hard..
i hope its worth it :D

i miss you...

2008-05-25T22:34:00.002+08:00

just came back frm chongpang. ate til bloated. now damn full. bored!!! shes now at chalet. hape she'll be fine :) miss her lots...
holidays beginning le. dunno if its getting more boring or more interesting. everyday sleep till late.. pigs life man. needa change of lifestyle. hardly have tym to post. i reali miss training though. but when it comes, im sure to dread it. dont noe wads installed tmr. damn boring lei!!! argh. i can onli stress how boring life is now.,!

i love u baby<3

2008-05-25T01:27:00.001+08:00

i love her so much..

2008-05-09T18:22:00.002+08:00

been dacades since i last posted...
exams officially over peeps, kinda bored. with nth to do all of a sudden. now at esaints hse. just woke up bout half an hour ago? darn tired., guanru's on his way here with weiling i guess. esaint's looking thru past photos frm friendster. LOL. esaints parents isnt in singapore. so we came to take over? haha. BORED!! guanru left with the suppiles.. RAHH!
hasnt been easy. close friends wld noe my difficuilty. feels so empty, so light... might not be a bad thing for some. hmm.. get use to it bah. -.-#
somethings are best left unsaid? is that reali true? reali dunno wad to think how to feel. hahas, i guess when it comes to affairs of the haert, things are so uncertain. reali fedup. hais. u'll nvr noe... u'll nvr noe...

back

2008-05-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

REVIVING MY BLOG~

wish u knew how i felt..

2008-03-14T01:00:00.006+08:00

todays our 1st month :)
iloveyoutanshurong!

just came hme after celebrating my birthday in advance with my ex-classmates. had not bad a time bah... went to jiyeon's at kovan melody. almost everyone was there though i was late for about 1hr. zk and xavier hadnt arrived. then ate stingrays, garlic bread, kimchi noodles, prawns. etc.. cldnt set up the bbq earli as it rained so heavily lah. dun reali fancy rainy days. mingyan's such a good friend. reali... had alot of things kept in my heart.. reali great to hav a friend like him.. thanksalot. and thanks raymond and gang for the coolin bath hor,.
alrdy 2.07 le. cant sleep...
down. cant help it :(

gnivah rennid rmt retfa ruo yad tuo tgt. desoppus ot evah rennid fiw ym sdneirf. tub ehs dellac reh dneirf gnola esuac s'ehs deracs ehs dlw eb eht ylno lrig ered. tndid ekil eno tib fo ti tub ho llew. dnimreven rol. i dlc tel reh tiba. neht tsuj won, ehs deksa em daw s'emit rennid. dlot reh 7. ylno ot eb dias taht gniteem enidualc ta 6. mi ekil ftw?! siah. i ilaer tnod wonk hal. i tnod wonk sdaw ehs gnikniht. gniteem reh ta 12 tey gniteem reh dneirf ta 6?! sit llip i tnac wollaws. siah.. ew ydaerla vah elttil emit 4 rehtohcae. hguoht sti tsuj na rouh, ti tnaem tola. thguoht dlc yrev llew esu rmt ot dneps emit fiw reh. gnileef os elttirb. tsomla dlc raeh ym traeh rettahs ydrla. sgniht i dennalp tnac og gnirocca ot nalp won.

reali reali trying my best ardy.. i really am.. is this the way things should be? im beat.

2008-03-13T00:26:00.002+08:00

just wanna hug her and nvr let go...

2008-03-12T00:05:00.003+08:00

im so diggin' this new blog skin lah.!
dear helped me up with it.! thanks dear!
has been another boring day at hme...
rahh.! sis' getting married later today.,
so many things that hav been done up.
a long day's coming up ahead...
whole day gonna be practically busy.
hope can meet her in the evening...
just now shaunjohncheetham pierced his ear,,
still sae no kik. in the end it did hurt huh..?
hahah. cute sial...
the polite lady gav a shot at his ear..
then he walked to the corner when onli 1 can see him.
then starts jumping in pain.!
hahahaha,,, joker lah.!
bought a long sleeve shirt at hang ten just now..
pink in colour..
okay bah.. nt bad..
this holiday's been a bore so far man...
this is my plans for the rest of the week.
wednesday- sis' wedding
thursday- training?(not confirmed), bbq at jiyeon's
friday- meeting her! :), dinner with wenkwang vick etc
saturday- training camp
sunday- free!

miss her so much;
wish had more time with her,.

:D but D:

2008-03-09T23:34:00.007+08:00

today at hme the whole day..
sian is used dun no how many times today..
this holiday is liike so boring lah...
tmr darling's gonna be her guai nuer,. pei-ing her mom.
slpt in the noon. slpt like a pig lah.,
this goes on i can die of boredom man...
went sp with shaun for dinner...
things seem great wib him though.
i miss her so much lah can.!?
love her,..

some1 has to giv and some1 has to take,,, i guess thats wad mantains a relationship. both cant be pullin at the same time bah,,,

2008-03-09T00:08:00.004+08:00

today had the JJfair. started preettyy sianned...
reported sch ard 7.45am.
thought that wld be booked late, but didnt get booked at all.
wasted all efforts of being on time,
taxi-ed to school...
had morning assembly...
bboorriinngg...
then went tanjong katong to get gym costume done.
had much trouble concealing my art work...
LOL.! hais..
then practically the whole day was quite sian lor...
okay bah.. wasted alot of money... wasnt much food for us to buy anywae...
the stingray wasnt that bad... my class did hotdogs... not bad either...
felt quite demolished reali today.. empty feeling.
u noe wad? on the way back to sch from marineparade
had quite a chat with samantha. respected senior...
told me many things and gav me loads of advice...
reali gotta thank her.., reali lightened quite a load in my heart..
performance today was quite.. okay...
everything went well bah. no major events reali...
at least for me...
im tired...
worried sick lahh, she havent replied.alrdy 12.19 le.
so late le lah. hope she's resting at hme alrdy...

cant slpp!!! :DDD

2008-03-01T01:45:00.003+08:00

*yawn*
its like 1.45am now...
darn bored at shuan's hse man,..
he's alrdy slping on the couch...
im bored!!
cant reali slp...
missing her so badly...
hmm... great news!
i passed all my subjects!!
cool man.! 1st tym.. since like dunno when lah...
just now met shurong at mac. then chatted like alot but not reali alot actuali.
shaun was there too.. his parents and sis werent at hme...
lalala~
i miss her so much lahh!
im like soo tired now lah. but how to slp..!?
shaun took the couch. then i slp wheere?
argh! nvm,.. he had a long day too...
let him rest bah...
wah. today was like. damn pasei lah! (maybe it isnt today. was ytd. now saturday le!!!)
felt reali like-that lor; its like so-ya lor.
things are okay now bahh..
she's so understanding lahh...
love her soooo much...
:DDD
tmr long day ahead man...
i mean today...
alot of things to do.
saturday!
-training
-play dota with yinghui they all
-go out with tinghui guan ru esaint they all
hope can meet her up bah..
tireeeed!!!
havent eaten for like so long lah !
the last thing was after macs. te the seaweed chips...
nice man. hahaha. crystal's favourite.!
sometyms i reali wonder how it wld be if i didnt retain...
maybe i wld be at hme now studying.
hahaha. maybe its a good thing..
more tym for more practice...8D
do u alwaes feel that ur sooo childish when u read ur old posts?
hahaha.. hmmm, i guess its because ppl mature bah..
i try to prevent writing things that are prone to be thought as lame in the future when i read them...
hahaha.. how weird humaan can be huh?
i feel much confortable this year man.!
not so emo like last year :DD
good thing man.!
hahaha.
i better stopp here...
goin siao liao...

boredom! as alwaes...

2008-02-26T21:01:00.003+08:00

feeling reali tired these few days...
maybe im just bored bah..
didnt reali had tym with her these days...
actuali only 2 days bah.. but felt like more...
rahh!! reali bored lah. damn sian...
tmr's wednesday.. boring lei..
feeli lyk ponning. reali feel lyk...
dont feel lyk studying at all...
today's more of a slackin day lah..
slpt for most of the lessons...
sommore alot of noise makers didnt come...

just ate dinner not long ago...
quite full.. but still wanna eat...
argh. y i eat so much still cannot grow fat wan arh?
wierd huh...?
sleeping soon bah... reali nth to do...
reali nth reali nth... to do...
im bored... reali bored... damn boredd....
oh yah. failed physics., damn fcked up lah.
though didnt expect a pass but reali felt so...
i RMB!
nab*i. today lunch was like darn ex lah..
$3.40 for my rice. and 80cents for my drink.
then later that stupid guan ru lah!
put a 10cent coin in my drink.!
still left so much lah,.
in the end bought another can of ju hua..
so altogether spent $5 on my lunch in sch!!!
wth.. xin tong...
im kinda getting sick of everything nowadays...
everything seems to be so like., routine lah!
morning wake up go sch,
after sch try to meet dearr or else play soccer..
then after tt go hme lor.
go hme liao oso nth do!!!
in front of this stupid computer...
listen to the same music everyday.
play the same old game...
use the same old heros...
life couldnt get more boring than this...
who wld be interested in my life man?!
i miss her laaaa....

reali looking forward to the march hols lah.
alot of things gonna happen...
fun things! :D
hahaha,...
im like so retard lah. laughiing to myself... :p
im goin siao liao... better stop here..,

i love my 'gong ' looking girl :D

monday madness.

2008-02-25T20:07:00.003+08:00

totally owned today!
hiistory got 18marks over 25!
felt damn happy lah...
at least my humanities was a pass.
reali felt very happy...
u noe wad?

i miss her ALOTT..!
wished she knew...

passed most of my subjects...
haha. though retained. but still having a sense of acomplishment.
last year i was like.. try not to fail lor.
but this year... try to get as much marks i can!
seldom go dwn alrdy. not very in le...
saturday sld be goin to get mine shaded...
hope it wun be costly...
told my mom. she wasnt reali pleased...
but... wadever...?

sometimes...
i reali feel her bah..
but there are times which i reali dont,.
i feel that things are hidden. though small but mean alot...

love my darling. alot..

saturday.

2008-02-23T16:49:00.003+08:00

im so bored lahh can?
ahh!!! nth to do. but finally blogging...
slept for abt an hour an half. feeling emotionless.
just now went sch in the morn...
went ard amk promoting the jj fair more rather then selling tickets...
done that wib guanru, esaint, lennon and tinghui..
had quite a good time i guess...
esaint's damn sporting though,. was a nice person in greeting the ppl and handing the flyers to them..
lennon didnt do this very well though..
i guanru and tinghui just walked lor...
had icecream at neBo.
8 scoops...
evry1 was like aiming for the cookies and cream lahh..

now listening to the kill acoustic by 30 seconds to mars...
nt bad seriously...
replayed it 3 times le. lol.
can see that im that bored..

blahblah~
i feel empty. i love you...

i lurve yooo...

2008-02-16T23:13:00.003+08:00

today today today...
went sch in morning.
LATE for gym!!! 100push up punishment,...
trained till 12. went bubbleteashop. she came later to drink too...
hmm... then waited for her extra training to end..
train-ed back to sembawang wib her...
wanted to meet her friend...
i went hme... darn bored i was...
listen to music the whole evening...
dinner wentto northpoint wib family. eat until damn full.
:DDDD imissherlotssss

Sunday!

2008-02-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

today went lan.!
lost every match though...
reali coz the com sucks at raiders lah...
mouse like shit.
prefer gdspeed's...
tmr common test lo. dunno wad to study...
english...
hais. darn tired now... goin to bed le,.
sleepy.... kk. wad a short post this is.! :DDD

Quiz

2008-02-10T11:05:00.000+08:00

argh!!! had to type it all out lah! geraldine's blog cant copy derh!!! lousy!!! XP
hahaha quiz tym!!!!

type a word, no explanations. ((:

1. Yourself:- confident?
2. YourGirlfriend/Boyfriend:- nftm
3. Your hair:- great! :))
4. Your mother:- sleeping
5. Your father:- bathing
6. Your favourite item:- handphone
7. Your last dream last night:- forgotten?
8. Your dream home:- hawaii!!
9. The room you are in:- bombshelter
10. Favourite colour:- red
11. Your fear:- lizards?
12. Where you wan to be in ten years:- heaven
13. Who you hung out with last night:- friends
14. What you're not:- genius
15. Your first stead:- well
16. One of your wish list items:- money$$$
17. Your gender:- male
18. The last thing you did:- bathe
19. What you are wearing:- clothes
20. Your favourite weather:- windy
21. (where's 21 arh???)
22. The last thing you ate:- wings
23. Your life:- borring...
24. Your mood:- bored
25. Who are u:- LEWIS! XD
Type the 1st thing hat comes to ur mind when u hear these 35 words..
1. Cigarette:- burn time
2. Friends:- fun
3. Powerranger:- myringtone
4. Relationships:- everlasting
5. Marijuana:- sounds erotic
6. Shit:- esaint??
7. Crack :- butt
8. (why is it all missing arh?)
9. Love:- sweet :)
10. War:- raw
11. Car:- expensive$$$
12. Gasprices:- up!
13. Halloween:- dunno
14. Bon jovi:- it's my life!
15. Religion:- buddism.
16. My space:- msn
17. Worst fear:- lizards eeew
18. Marriage:- 1st night ^^
19. Fashion:- wad i wear bah
20. Brunettes:- sounds like some whore issit?
21. (Where's 21!!!!)
22. Work:- no life
23. Past time:- listening to music bah
24. Football:- favourite sport!
25. One night stands:- fun but not memorable
26. Pet peeve:- what the?!?!
27. Pixie Stix:- huh?!
28. Vanilla icecream:- mcdonalds?
29. (whats wib these missing qtns arh?!!?!)
30. High school:- Phs
31. Pyjamas:- she actuali wore them? cool...
32. Wood:- referee
33. Surfing:- babes
34. Pictures:- memories
35. First love:- long time ago le.

Quiz!!! woah, im tired.... typed it all out! stupid sial. cant copy frm Geraldine's blog.!

Full name: ChewZhiQin Lewis
Namebackwards: Siwel
Nickname: ah chew (tts wad xavier alwaes calls me)
Screenname: smlj?!
DOB: 17th march 92
Nationality: s'porean
Location: Sembawang!
Starsign: 2 fish!
Religion: already said...
Height: 1.65m?
Weight: 48kg
Shoe size: 6 i think
Hair colour: reddish black?
You look like: me! :D
Left or right handed: right!
Gay, straight, bi or others: straight definitly
Bestfriends: alot
Bestfriends you trust most: dunno
Bestfriend of opposite sex: not sure
crush: not sure myself..
Parents: fcking noisy
Worst enermy: dunno
Fave on9 guy: esaint? alot of crap.. XD
Fave on9 girl : PANDA! alwaes on9 derh
Craziest friend: ESAINT!
Advice friends: Yinghui? Raymond?
Loudest friend: ESAINT!
Person you cry with: i dun cry! :D
Any sis: 1
Any pet: nil
Any disease: nooo!
Pager: never had 1
Phoneline: studentPlan!!
Phone model: sonyw880i
Lavalamp: cool! Oo
Pool or hot tub: Hot tub definitly! warm...
A car: dad's Lancer
Your personality: Crazy! and hot tempered! rawr!!!
Driving: still young
Room: darn messy...
Sch: phss
Bed: Single
Relationship with parents: i dunno
Believe in yourself: when im in a fight
Believe in love at first sight: y not? but sure wun last derh...
Good listener: still can bah
Pray: ya! everyday at hme.
Believe in reincarnation: ya
Make fun of ppl: erm.. u say lei?
Like to talk on phone: not reali... alwaes nothing to talk
Want to get married: not so soon bah, havent had enuff fun
Motion sickness: Bus.. Taxis
Eat stem of broccoli: yup
Eat chicken with fork: y not?
Dream in colours: red
Slp with stuffed animals: dusty...
Next to you: fan
On the wall of your room: Clock
On your mouse pad: mouse lah!
Dream car: dunno
Dream date: jessica alba! woot~
Dream honeymoon spot: My bed? :p
Dream husband or wife: dunno lei
Bedtime: anytime. when im tired...
Under your bed: nothing lah...
Worst time of the day: when its darn hot and sunny
Theme song: jeff hardy's definity... edge's not bad too
Hardest thing about growing up: watching porn when dad's at hme?
Funniest experience: too many man
Scariest Experience: dun hav bah
Most desperate and funny thing i've ever did to get the opposite sex: dunno lei
Worst feeling: no money!
Best feeling in the world: ask esaint...

so much for now... was damn bored tts why... :PPP

cu san :DDDD

2008-02-10T01:30:00.000+08:00

woke up at joey's hse. at around 7.15am and gave sum1 a morning call.
damn blur lei she. gonggong wan. damn cute...
then met up mingyan at sbw mrt. made him wait like so long lah.
psps,.
then head to xavier's hse for more mahjong. saw ray and esaint at sunplaza. damn qiao.
reached xav's hse. zhi kai and yinghui later joined us.
played mahjong. lost much win much too,. haha. had fun man.
now's like 1.45am. darn tired. goin too slp le.

long time its been...

2008-02-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year people!
been real long since my last post huh..
came home not long.
just bought for SHURONG her prepaid sim.
went visting my grand's place today.
collected ang pows...
feel kinda rich now though onli allowed to keep 3 of them...
haha... chatting wib a panda now.
darn cute sial she... gong gong derh.
walk oso can fall down... LOL!
`~lalala
will update soon

:(

2007-11-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

hais... argh!! here i am again... long long tym no update huh... hais... today feel darn down... since morn. actuali woke up happy happy derh... but i keep getting sad and sadder each tym... i reali cant stand it... reali sad... ARGH!!!! sadedsaded... haha. cant believe im so weak huh... who wld hav known... heart pain arh..! hais...

2007-11-01T11:25:00.000+08:00

wow... feels great to be back man... its been like... definitely darn long since i last blog huh... haha... first thing wanna blog... hais. im retaining... haha.. still can laugh huh... this sucks lah.. but alrite.... its not tt bad actuali. can choose new combination wib art... haha... hope tt nxt year will be a smoother year bah... ^^

haha... been real messed up recently wib relationships... haha... u dun wanna noe realli... hais.. com still spoilt though.. now in sch tts why can blog... cool huh...

okay lah.... will blog soon...

2007-08-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

seems alittle long since i last blogged...
common test week ya... studied less.
gone oso lah tis wan... damn hopeless..
hais... dun feel lyk studying at all.
i dun wanna retain... yet not wanting to study...
argh...
left chem, phy, chin, amaths, bio...
i think so...
sian! i dun wanna fail...
how to study... no chem textbook. chinese study wad shit?
amaths how to practice? bio zzzz...
hais... sianned... fail lor!!!
hahahaha.... siao wan lah lewis...
dun care him...
miss her so so much...
love her so so much...
want her so so muchh...
gd luck for exam LEWIS!!!!
WOOT~ ^^

2007-07-29T09:45:00.000+08:00

i lurve who i am now and wad im doin. i think i juz found lewis (;

2007-07-29T09:24:00.000+08:00

AST ginna pa buay tou
another sunday morn came so quickly as saturday passed... reali love saturdays. the hang outs... so many things happening recently. haha. luckily none were tt bad bah. things seem a little better now. i guess. haha. and again... my tagboard!!! kao. hais... hopeless dog... u noe wad im saying if ur readin this...

2007-07-16T21:31:00.003+08:00

Ne-Yo Because Of You Lyrics

fuck this little world of mine man. i mean seriously...

2007-07-16T21:17:00.000+08:00

im sooo getting sick of living in sch... reali... i mean c'mon wads the point man... teacher like mr. ''black'' suck so much man. i cldnt find the code for the english assignment. and its like thank god i had it even done. hais. i told him i cldnt find the code. ''THEN GO FIND IT! SEEMS LIKE U CANT FIND ANYTHING INCLUDING UR NAME TAG?!?!'' hais. c'mon man. i noe im stupid alrite? but u didnt hav to yell at me in front of every fuckin 1 rite? hais. even hitt my hand. son of a bitch. hais. reali damn sad lah. stayed up so late to do this particular homework. asked friends how to get the code. onli to get fuckin remarks like go search the mlg. it sld be there. then after i got sooo scolded... then they tell me. '' you sld hav asked me man...'' and'' why didnt u ask me?'' when i reali did asked them b4.. hais. nth to sae man. so saddening lah. i reali felt like punching that mr. ''black''. im juz like 15 and hais... i reali cant take it man. damn him lah. hais... reali feel so down... its like wad the hell lah. submit work mean submit lah. still muz hav wad fuckin code. hais... wadever lah. it doesnt reali matter. nth will change lah. chers think they're so big that they can abuse every rite they hav... sch's no sch... hahahahaaha......

headache

2007-07-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

having a splittin headache now...
still hv to complete eng assignment
arghhh,.,,,,,,..
thank god i hav such good friends...
thanks...
owe ur big tymm...

didnt mean to... didnt want to...

2007-07-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

everytime im alone i think of u...
so so deeply i will miss u...
everythin tt i do... i wish u cared...
but u werent even aware...
hahahaha...
i am a fool...
to even love u...
i reali am...
i admit...
im sorry...

owe money pay money

2007-07-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

its past mid night... recently kinda tied up wib alot of daiji. damn sianned.
so bored... cant sleep lah. today went out wib yh, ray, yilong, chris and greg. we went to sch 1st to play soccer. kinda sian man. tot wld be like 10 plus ppl comin... in the end psed like hell man. damn f*ked up. onli 6 ppl came... play wad shit.. reali disappointing. excuses excuses excuses... and i reali hate ppl who lie... cant stand it... but anywae its over.. wad can i possibly do?
after soccer in sch we went to amk to play lan.
was kinda fun then. 3v3. haha. but damn ex lah. 8 bucks. im poor u noe... damn poor recently. onli get 6 a day. wib or w/o dinner. poor thing hor... sad...
recently sch got much things happening. hope can be peaceful. reali. its like so tiring lah.

no hair lah

2007-07-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

hais. now no fringe. cant reali do anythin abt it anywae... reali darn damn upset. hais. wish sum1 could feel the way i do. i stare at the mirror wonderin how long i'll take for it to grow long again... hais. y dunt the sch allow fringe? i dun reali understand... hais... wads over is over le bah... bobian liao lor... sadsadsad...
went and watched transformers... was great actuali. didnt tot tt it will be tt good...
damn dwn in the dumps recently... hp gone, fringe gone, mood altogether gone! hais...
feelin damn moody lah. reali damn pissed up with everythin... things arnt goin how i wld like it to be... hope things will turn out good soon.
btw if any1 noe of any quick hair growth methods pls tell me... ^^

2007-07-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

today, it's a long day i sld sae... had tuition in the afternoon. haha, saw this very pretty girl in class. new student. reali cool. haha.. felt silly though. was teased the whole lesson. sianed.
then went to sembawang terror club wib david, tania, mich and tiff. and of coz mich's dad. was kinda cool though. then mich keep sayin i so sian liddat... 1st tym experiencing this. hmm... hais. but was kinda sian at tyms though.
love is truly wantin ur partner to be happy. agreed.
hais. cant sleep. so many things on my mind...

2007-06-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

been reali tough recentli.. so many things happening. cant reali seem to get a hold of myself. hais. handphone cant be repaired though sent for servicing. reali damn sad lah. im juz too speechless lah. hais. it wasnt any1 fault anywaes... no1 wanted it to happen... blame it on darn luck bah...
im tryin reali hard to forget. hais. im reali not handling this thing well. i cant take it. i reali cant. but i guess somethings juz isnt wad they wld be bah. as sum1 i respect told me,'' wads urs will be urs; wads not urs, will nvr be urs...''. haha funny isnt it? i refused to believe in that before. but now... i reali resign to fate. 'if ur hearts not in it...' hais. studies reali tied most of my tym i spent at home. reali tough lah. the maths... teacher keep teachin like a speedin train. cant catch up. maybe im juz not tt smart. every1 seem to understand. but i dun. not even a single fuck. hais... fuck it man... i hate puttin the word fuck in my post... but juz fuck it lah.. hais.
hais, sum more expecting a hair check one of these days... damn sian.. dun reali understand y sld students hav a proper haircut. teachers think tt a sch haircut will hlp the student exell in their studies. but in fact, it lowers their self esteem. discouraging them from performin their best in sch. students juz wanna look good.. tts all.. hais... sianned. reali chose the wrong sch ba. hate it. cant take it. hope these things can reali end. hais. we're like 14? 15? c'mon man... why does life get so tough now? then wad wld it be like when we grow up and start workin? wld things get better? haha... dun reali get it.. parents scoldin like shit. doubt they did work tt hard when they were at my age. hais. its okay bah...

thanks

2007-06-27T20:26:00.001+08:00

Fall Out Boy Lyrics

2007-06-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

I GIV UP

My Future's In My Hands

2007-06-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

sch's starting in afew days... im like still slackin here. holiday mood. slacker.
tmr goin to study at amk library. not sure got wad homework though.

'' i cant breath easy... ''

stress arh. reali nid to pia homework and studies this term.
very e important. cant afford to slack.
but oddly, i dun regret slackin and gettin those shitty results...
haiya. i oso dunno wad my futures gonna be..
i've been thinkin every single day of the holiday...

inlovingmemory

2007-06-19T00:24:00.001+08:00

~ in loving memory of my hand phone ~

sonyericssonw700i
dateofbirth 09sep06
calledhometothelord 18june07
deathby seawater
the pictures we took together
the amazing videos we saw together
and the days we spent together... i will never forget... :'(

2007-06-17T20:55:00.000+08:00

I understand...

21Siaobailong™

2007-06-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

its me again, LEWIS chewahchew...
seriously bored. abt 1 more week till sch starts... so many things in my mind...
academics.. hais.. i got a 40.9% fail.. i reali dunno how to pick myself up frm there... i must get an average of at least 55% for end year to pass... i think. if im wrong pls correct me. sounds easy? wib my slackin attitude... hais... i reali dun think i'll be able to make it.. ppl ard me telll me,'' u juz hav to study harder'', but seriously, im not in the mood to study at all...

reali miss sch as i miss u... (miss u like crazy)
i still love u... (love u like nvr b4)
waiting for u to accept me... (accept my love for u.)

last week of holiday le... so many outings. not many lah actuali. its juz tt its all squeezed up lor..
monday- gymbbq (notfree)
tues- gym, primarysch gathering OR 3H outing (notfree)
wed- tuition at nite (freeinmorntilnoon)
thurs- study day (notfree)
friday- free! (absolutelyfree)
sat- eng tuition (freefrm4onwards)
sunday- tuition (freefrm4onwards)

hais... i feel myself rotting lah... so many things to catch up...
slackslackslack...

chopchop... okay...
weak subjects
-amaths
-emaths
-combinesciences
-bio
boy...u've got a long way to go man..

2007-06-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

- Good Charlotte Lyrics

2007-06-16T23:43:00.001+08:00

- The Moffatts Lyrics

2007-06-16T23:41:00.001+08:00

- The Moffatts Lyrics

2007-06-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

- The Moffatts Lyrics

missing u like crazy...

2007-06-14T15:24:00.000+08:00

hais... days i see u on9... but dared not tok to u... dunno wad to tok more rather... and summore so wad lah.. hais... love u so so much... the thoght of u nvr left my mind....
okay okay... stop it le... gettin abit too much.. hais... so damn sian... wonder how r u...

question...

2007-06-12T19:11:00.000+08:00

where did i go wrong...? i've been thinkin for the past few days... hais... dunno to stay on or let go... maybe sumthins bu shi ni de jiu bu shi ni de bah... but, not reali convinced though... hais.. haiya!!!! dunno wad to do!! haha... dun understand... juz dont.
hais... holiday's a bore... totally. boredom... tired studying afew tyms... but... hais.
my heart's like so heavy now... so manythin i cant put down... so many things i cant accept... theres so many things i wan to sae to u... hais.. forget it ba...

3H chalet '07

2007-06-06T20:38:00.000+08:00

chalet. hav been quite cool actuali. hais. except for tt incident. reali sry yancheng. hais. okay...

1st day was kinda cool. i met david and yancheng and made our way to downtown ourselves. we entered the chalet to meet ms choi, mc and hongyi. they came earlier to get the key. ya. then ms choi sat for awhile and had to leave. jiaqi and yihui were there too. hm. we practically played cards that whole day. at night, i mc and hongyi went to buy dinner. chicken rice stall, no chicken. lol. kinda troublesome as david and jiaqi wanted chicken rice. so bought then western food instead. philip the came later. hm.. then at night we watched borat. kinda freaky watchin wib yihui. david was like dodging the scene but she wasnt. slept around 5am. woke up abt 3hrs later.

day 2 wads kinda.. i dunno man. ate at BK in the morn. then i, philip and mc went to the arcade. the rest when back to the chalet. mc played his drum set game. dun reali noe wad izzit but was kinda cool. many else came that day. val, qiuhui, sandra, sheryl, lunfei, samuel, roy, sze hoe, juinli, shermin and crystal came layter. yancheng did the most of the cookin. although sum not cooked.. haha, but i dunno how to cook anywaes.. mitch and tiff came. but didnt stay for the bbq. wad a pity lah... :[

day 3. day to leave. jia qi left earli to meet her boy. hongyi went hme . then mc, yc, david, juinli, crystal, szehoe, yihui and me took the bus to bishan to hav lunch. had at long john. its wad kinda long trip there. most of us slept. had our lunch then bought bubble tea. slacked at the play ground... so sian lah.. mc and david left. yihui and yc went hme. jl, crystal, szehoe and me went to causeway to buy crystal's jacket.
overall it was kinda cool... enjoyed myself ba...

2007-06-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

lyrics - The Moffatts Lyrics

hais. been reali tough for me these days... these emotional feeling of mine. uncontrollable. i reali miss u alot... wish sch reopens tmr... haha... i reali dont mind coz i noe i can see u once again... so sian... bored... okay.. enough wib the emo stuff alrdy.
hmm hope vincent's ok... he sld be ba...
''misery, is wad i feel, when ur not around...''
kk that all ba... reali nth much to update... soon ba...

2007-05-31T21:09:00.001+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

2007-05-31T10:24:00.001+08:00

lyrics - The Moffatts Lyrics

2007-05-29T22:04:00.000+08:00

results. LOL. reali nth for me to sae le.
hais. been slackin lah. dun reali noe if can workit pass tis yr lah. not reali confident. but will reali try hard frm now on. hav to pass man. oh c'mon... damn sad lah. haha. but over le.
sian. today's kinda rough. so many things happened... haha... very boliao lah. haha. its a day vincent will nvr forget...

2007-05-29T22:00:00.001+08:00

lyrics - Take That Lyrics

2007-05-24T22:54:00.001+08:00

Ready Or Not Lyrics

2007-05-23T19:57:00.000+08:00

"Ready Or Not"

[CHRISTIAN:] COULD YOU LOVE A BOY
LIKE ME TONITE,
COME ON BABY WON'T YOU
TAKE A BITE
COULD YOU LOVE A BOY LIKE ME TONITE
OH YEAH!

[BEN:] THERE'S MAGIC WITHIN YOU,
THERE'S MAGIC IN EVERYTHING YOU DO,
MAGIC ME TO THE PLACE WHERE
DREAMS COME TRUE.

[CHRISTIAN:] SOMETIMES I GO CRAZY
I GET OFF ON THE CRAZY THINGS YOU DO,
I'M JEALOUS OF EVERY GUY THAT
LOOKS AT YOU

[MARK:] SO TELL ME,
COULD YOU LOVE A BOY LIKE ME LIKE ME
TELL ME COULD YOU LOVE A BOY LIKE ME.

[BEN:] BECAUSE I NEED YOU,
YOU'RE MY HEART AND SOUL.
AND I'M GONNA LET YOU KNOW
AIN'T GONNA LET YOU GO.

[ALL:] READY OR NOT, HERE I COME,
YOU CAN'T HIDE FROM ME, HIDE AND SEEK.
RUN AWAY NOW, OR STAY NOW.
COS I'LL KEEP SEARCHING
I'LL KEEP SEARCHING FOR LOVE.

[CHRISTAN:] COULD YOU LOVE A BOY LIKE ME TONITE,
COME ON BABY WON'T YOU TAKE A BITE,

[PAUL:] THE GAME THAT YOU'RE PLAYING
WHY DO YOU TEASE ME LIKE YOU DO
YOU GOTTA LET ME DOWN
OR SEE IT THROUGH.

[MARK:] YOU'RE STRAIGHT FROM A MOVIE,
BUT BABY I'M NOT FROM HOLLYWOOD.
BY STEALING YOUR HEART
I'LL BE YOUR ROBIN HOOD.

[CHRISTIAN:] TELL ME, COULD YOU LOVE A BOY LIKE ME LIKE ME
TELL ME COULD YOU LOVE A BOY LIKE ME.

[CHRISTIAN:] BECAUSE I NEED YOU,
YOU'RE MY HEART AND SOUL.
AND I'M GONNA LET YOU KNOW

[MARK:] AIN'T GONNA LET YOU GO.
[ALL:] READY OR NOT, HERE I COME,
YOU CAN'T HIDE FROM ME, HIDE AND SEEK.
RUN AWAY NOW, OR STAY NOW.
COS I'LL KEEP SEARCHING
I'LL KEEP SEARCHING BABY

[ALL:] READY OR NOT, HERE I COME,
YOU CAN'T HIDE FROM ME, HIDE AND SEEK.
RUN AWAY NOW, OR STAY NOW.
COS I'LL KEEP SEARCHING
I'LL KEEP SEARCHING FOR LOVE.

[ALL:] BABY - YOU CAN'T HIDE THE LOVE INSIDE
SEARCHING FOR LOVE
BABY - YOU CAN'T HIDE THE LOVE INSIDE

[MARK:] COULD YOU LOVE A BOY LIKE ME, LIKE ME
TELL ME COULD YOU LOVE A BOY LIKE ME.

[BEN:] BECAUSE I NEED YOU,
YOU'RE MY HEART AND SOUL
AND I'M GONNA LET YOU KNOW

[PAUL:] I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO! OH NO!

[ALL:] READY OR NOT, HERE I COME,
YOU CAN'T HIDE FROM ME, HIDE AND SEEK.
RUN AWAY NOW, OR STAY NOW.
COS I'LL KEEP SEARCHING
I'LL KEEP SEARCHING BABY

[ALL:] READY OR NOT, HERE I COME,
YOU CAN'T HIDE FROM ME, HIDE AND SEEK.
RUN AWAY NOW, OR STAY NOW.
COS I'LL KEEP SEARCHING
I'LL KEEP SEARCHING FOR LOVE.

[CHRISTIAN:] COULD YOU LOVE A BOY
LIKE ME TONITE,
COME ON BABY WON'T YOU
TAKE A BITE
COULD YOU LOVE A BOY LIKE ME TONITE
OH YEAH

this song quite old but reali is cool... u guys sld reali hear it again and for those who didnt noe... go listen!!! :]

2007-05-21T08:07:00.000+08:00

Here Without You lyrics

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

2007-05-15T21:41:00.000+08:00

happy :] haha... very happy today... she received my present finally... after owing for like so long lah... reali liked her smile... so sweet... okok... i noe i noe... haha... :] :] :] glad she liked it... :] missing her so much... lalala....

2007-05-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

hais... waiting... waiting... tiring... but i gotta admit... im happy waiting... =.= wad sense u might tell me... haha...
not reali well these few days... u're alwaes on my mind... cant stop thinkin of u... love sick perhaps. love deprived perhaps. but at least i noe i reali do love u...
''havin a reali bad headache...'' ya... good idea... tts wad im tellin teach the day after tmr... nth much to do though... after sch then come bah... haha...
dun hav much confidence for mid yr though... reali regreted not studyin... wish can turn back tym... but obviously NOT... hais... reali hope to juz hav an overall pass... plsplspls
hmm today i sortta had a debate wib david... abt religion... truth or fiction...? hais... dun wanna type anythin offensive or anything here... later kana sue then shang bao ( go on newspaper)... but who reali noes the truth? hais wadever it is... 1 life, live it... cool. sound like m1... hais... but dun believe no heaven wth rite? hais... but... it reali doesnt matter anywae...
today my bro's birthday... nvr came home on tym to cut the cake wib him... felt so damn guilty. hais...
today mothers day too... felt equally guilty too.
hais.. lifes full of regrets... i reali hate it so much...
ppl seem to be livin in irony... sumhow... like my teacher said... technology was created to solve poverty and gain security. like alarm systems and production of goods... but now... technology is being used to earn extra/ excessive amt of money... and now ppl are losin that sense of security due to the money their havin now, and now due to advanced technology... ppl are unable to pay for these services.. hais... such pain... ppl arnt reali doin things for their main motives for livin now... like entertainment... clubbing and gaming... becomin a craze and ppl liv for it and now kids given juz a kite wld not be satisfied. at all .. hais... wad the hell i say... wat the hell...

juz want u to noe

2007-05-07T01:16:00.000+08:00

i dont noe. i reali dont. hais. i love u. tts all i hav to say. if u dont love me. juz giv me a hint. i'll stop rite juz there... but juz to let u noe. i reali do love u. i dont hope for a chance. but a cooperation.

her birthday... 4th

2007-05-04T08:16:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today's reali her birthday... yup... sum1 told me it was ytd. wished her ytd and was like... i dun wanna say...
today's also maths exam... not reali confident abt it though... hav been failin maths since sec1... cant hlp it.. too lazy to study...
might get caning... zzz.. stupid mrt-an... hais... nvm lah... its over liao...
so yearning for tt day to come when u'll accept me... *slap* wad am i dream of man...

'' today is too late... how long hav i to wait...
no apologies... i nvr tot u'll be so easily deceived...i'll juz hang on...''

hais... u sld noe... today might be havin a soccer match in sch... gonna be damn cool... 2integ '06 and 2 humility '06... hope it doesnt rain and every1 can make it...
ok... tts all le... goin to study maths... will update soon... good luck ppl for the mid years...

......

2007-04-28T23:32:00.000+08:00

hais... so damn down lah... hais.. exam in 2 days tym... sian... not prepared enough... hais... later flung my papers i will sure cry... for sure... hais... reali hurts lor... hais... so many shit happening... how many times muz i make it clear... we are juz friends... okay? hais... tan even wanna charge me for defiance... fuck this world ok? i had damn enough of this world... thanks... thank the one up there who heard me but refused to answer... i reali had enough... argh... reali god damn sianned.... thanks... i reali hav nth to say... i reali wonder where were u when i nided u... they say how great u were and how powerful u are... but u proved them wrong... ur juz a lie... a fraud... i hate u...

hais...wad to sae?

2007-04-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

today seem went slow... hais... woke up late... came sch ard 10.30... recess tym... then climbed the gates as usual... then played soccer wib the rest... parade square... ah choo... he suck man... find fault wib me... after the yc incident... hais... muz cut slope... sch socks... no ear sticks or bar frm exam... suck rite? hais... life couldnt get worst... the new dm caught me in the field... hais... then muz run sia... then can take back ezylink card... haix... suck me... then he asked me to get a hair cut too... slope!!! suck man... i hate it... hais... choi isnt tt bad after all... hais... let things go its course ba... hais... so sian... hate sch hate sch hate sch... the onli reason i go sch is you... hais... if i dun see u... my day seems wastes... hais... but anywae... hais... dunno lah... complications hoped not passed to me... hais... love, friends, studies... hais... gonna break down soon... cant hlp it man... hais.... things dun go how i want it to be... help friend frm a fukin mole teacher caused me to this state... y? i dun understand man... y muz cut hair... if once a term i understand... buts its like very week lah... hais... exam nxt week... not reali confident abt it... hais... at hme try to pia but cant get into my head... hais... miss primary sch... miss freedom... wads freedom? hais... fuck everythin man... ahis... fuckin sad lah... everythin i think abt it... my heart sinks... and i cant reali help it man... hais... emoin is not a choice not an option but a way and the way... hais... true u may sae wadever results i get will not sffect one teacher... but it reali doesnt matter to me... ahis... true... career future all in my hands... but at wad cost ? hais.... dun think abt all these le... go slp liao... hope tmr can be a better one... love u still- alwaes on my mind...

it doesnt bother me...

2007-04-24T22:17:00.000+08:00

dun wanna think abt... dun wanna talk abt it... juz so sick abt it... hais... its hurtin so much in me... can u feel it? doubt u can... its pain... rite here... feel it... on my chest... i juz wanna cry so badly... hais... scar in my heart... i'll nvr forget nor regret...

2007-04-24T07:02:00.000+08:00

Ryan Cabrera - Shine On Lyrics

I've given every moment I had
Still I can never seem to keep up with you
You're done with one mile, and on to another one thousand
Still I could never seem to keep up with you

I know you'll be better off without me when I'm gone
You know you're beautiful
You're beautiful

[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends I'll be with you till the very end
Shine on
You were made to

It's keeping me awake everynight
But I can never seem to give up on you

I know you'll be better off without me when I'm gone
You know you're beautiful
You're beautiful

[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends I'll be with you till the very end
Shine on
You were made to

Nobody's wrong
Nobody's right
Keep moving on

Shine on
You were made to shine on

[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends
You're gonna be better than you've ever been so
Shine on

You're gonna be just fine
You're gonna be alright love
You're gonna be just fine
You're gonna be alright love

Ur Beautiful..

2007-04-24T06:59:00.000+08:00

hais... i reali love u i reali do... hais... let love be love... questioned myself... frequently... if i reali do... i tell u... i reali do...love u... so despo? haha... im not... juz stressed... okay? hmmm... alrite... maybe a twinnie little bit despo... okay? haha... wadever it is... hais... ur beautiful...

pain and suffering...

2007-04-22T02:01:00.000+08:00

had a fight... gave a fight... won a fight... after the fight... i wanted to call u... but tot u will be asleep anywaes... hais... pain- i eat... love- i giv...

20th April 2007

2007-04-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

hais... let things go how they wanna go ba... waitin may not be productive thing to do but i noe ive tried... haha... today jogathon... pia until so tired still get onli 32nd... maybe must start frm the front then can get top 20... hais... saded... so sian leh... everythin i do also so jia lat... try next yr lor... bo bian...
i dunno wads next and wad to do nxt... hot cold hot cold... damn tired... wanna giv up... but dun wan to... u get me ?!
officially joined today... quite sian... haha... but nvm lah... im in means im in... dun think too much...

chibai...

2007-04-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

wah!!! dunno wad to sae liao lah... argh!!! but hais... every1 did wad they could then... hais... blame the tramp... so sucky... sound so sore loser rite? hais... but its a fact... argh!!! hate losin... nvr accomplished anythin good in my life... wan win in gym also cant... hais... damn si bai lor... hate it!!! hais... '' why so sad?'' of coz lah.. ur win liao of coz sae why sad... shit... hais... life's so damn a fuck lah... hate it hate it... so stressed lah... fuck the tramp lah... dun despise us okay?! we'll be back next year... i promise... >:-[

know...

2007-04-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

i reali nid to noe how she think abt me... its tearing up my heart ... i cant stand it seriously... hais... reali wonder if i reali meant smthing to u... or juz a friend or even juz a school mate... it reali sets me thinkin... hais.. i reali dunno if i sld giv up... i dont think u wld understand... hais... jioin the girl tt i want sure is needin one hell of a hard work... hais... everythings meant to be broken... i reali nid to noe... im tired alrdy...

probs...

2007-04-15T21:43:00.000+08:00

now so fan... hais... u wlnt noe... so many problems... sld join bo? sld continue to jio bo? haha... seriously.... this sucks... haha... hope everythin can be solved soon... aiya... competition comin le... so kan jiong... 3 more days.... hais... hope can get 4th... problems problems problems...

hurting...

2007-04-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

speechless... nth reali seems to be in place for a long long tym... fate bah...that curse... u win lah... hais...
so sian. onli i noe... pain. onli i felt... jealousy. onli i bear... love. tore it apart... thx lah... haha... rite here... my heart... ther... hurt like fuck... gettin over it... hope so... thks fr the memories... even when they werent so great...

friends

2007-04-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

hais... wheres the trust? whats friendship to u all? haha... to me it meant everything... maybe friends dont mean anythin to u ba... but i treat every friend better then i treat my parents... believe me... haha... u see me havin mood swings... gettin pissed... to u it seem like im petty... i am petty i admit... im sensitive... i admit... to me being kept in the dark reali hurts and feels so empty... haha... tts me ba... reali affects me... i dun blame... serious... im the problem... thx anywae... for bein tt friend...

she smiles :) i dont :(

2007-04-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

NINE DAYS LYRICS

"Absolutely (Story Of A Girl)"

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles

Now how many days in a year
She woke up with hope
But she only found tears
And I can be so insincere
Making her promises never for real
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes
Now how many days disappear
When you look in the mirror
So how do you choose

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles

Now how many lovers would stay
Just to put up with this shit
Day after day
Now how did we wind up this way
Watching our mouths for the words that we say
As long as we stand here waiting
Wearing the clothes or the soles that we choose
Now how do we get there today
When we're walkin too far for the price of our shoes

Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles

[Guitar solo]

Well your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her

This is the story of a girl
Her pretty face she hid from the world
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her

This is the story of a - girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
When she smi-iles!

bad times... where are the good ones !?!?

2007-04-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

today's a day worth thinkin for me.... am i reali a flirt, i ask myself... wads the definition of a flirt... haha... do i reali flirt??? yinghui told sum1 i liked her b4 and she replied sayin tt '' didnt he alrdy change target? he so flirt wan...'' it reali pains me... hmm... i dun see no shit where i went wrong man... i change target not becoz im a flirt... juz tt i am reali unable to carry on pursuing that particular person... she might hav like sum1 or doesnt show any interest in me ok? im not a flirt... i seriously hate it man... i dont flirt and im nvr a flirt... u say i keep changin steads... but u dun noe wads reali goin on lor... i am serious in all my relationships and there's sumthings i reali wanna explain but am unable to do so at all! i feel so terrible lah... its like everybody has the bad impression on me... hais... girls... its like if i cant win the heart of this girl... sld i carry on with false hopes and end up with nth or move on and try my shot at another? i reali dunno wad to do man... im damn fu*ked up lah... hais... maybe if u think im a flirt, u sld think again b4 openin ur big mouth... if both parties are unable to suit one another... wad for carryin on this relationship rite? or sld u carry on juz for face sake and live in misery? i noe... if u dun think this relationship wld last... why stead in the first place? but u wldnt noe wads gonna happen wad... as both parties noe each other better... they discover one another's weaknesses and neglect the strong points... hais... is love tt difficult and demanding... hais... u say im a flirt... a playboy... a future editor of the playboy's magazine... to heck wib our friendship man... i dun think a friend sld make such offensive remarks... i hate it man... in class im tryin my best to control my temper... but u all are juz too much man... so much things are on my mind recently and i havent been fine so pls... hais... sumtyms i reali feel damn fu*ked up that i reali feel that fightin seems to be the onli way lah... hais... thx guys... thx for ur comments...

juz a falloutboy....

2007-04-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

sianned... actuali nth to blog... but juz blog lor... so sianned... hais... sch's getting boring as the days past... tmr's good fridae... no sch... no sch means no ---... hmmm... im kinda suspicious... suddenly every1 seems to be tellin me this... '' wads meant to be urs is urs....'' hate it man... dunno wads goin round... muz try to keep low profile... hias... fuck them man... reali piss me off... everyday pass by like fuck sia... hais... guess tts life... hais... argh... so pissed... maths teacher, ss teacher and form teacher... all the same... sian...
givin up isnt tt easy for me as usual... but i'll try to get ovr it as usual anywae... wads mine wld be mine... reali kinda agree... but its haunting... hais... david juz stuck gold... i think... good luck to him... :) right girls do not come by tt easily... learn how to cherish and wld be happy... :) hais... hope this can turn out well for him... jiayou... lucky guys... hopes...

2007-04-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

so sian... today seem so unlucky... kana lecture in mornin by cher... then suan like sian lor... haha... david lucky hor... wish u luck... haha... so sianned... hm... gotta control my feelings... givin myself away... so sian... tmr got gym... hope com. can get top3... i'll do my best... hope the others will too... :)

i reali wanna cry...

2007-04-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

depressed... know now... but will not give up... until ur taken... lucky guy... :)

sianed fun day....

2007-04-01T00:57:00.000+08:00

back at hme... took the last train... phew... lucky lor... david's bro fetch yh, ray, mc, xav and yc to yck mrt... or else dunno how to go hme... hais... but today was quite a sian fun day... fun part is the tym we spent at greg's hse... greg was kinda sian anywae... they played wwe wresling, winning eleven and street soccer ps2 games... haha... quite enjoyed myself wib mahjong and dotA... tt stupid david arh, anyhow call ppl... she called me back then ask me why i called lah... then kup the phone... feel kinda empty at that point... though didnt sms for awhile liao but stil... dun reali noe wads happening... sian... cant stop thinkin abt ...... sian bo... maybe things wun work out at all... its all false hopes i hav... hais... hahas... hope not...

saturday morning...

2007-03-31T07:44:00.000+08:00

so sianned (as usual). haha... listening to fallout boy songs (as usual) ... sianned saturday morning... later goin greg's hse... haha...siann... so missing... sumthin... haha.. reali feelin damn stuck up this morn... pmsing... argh... so sianned... nth to blog abt actuali... got lah but later ppl kaopei me... haha jkjk... no offence hor...

2007-03-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

hais... juz confessed... feel so awkward... think she's gonna shun me lor... zzz... hais... zou yi bu suan yi bu lor... bo bian... reali scared that she will avoid me lah...hais.. sldnt hav said... very luan now... cant reali think... mental block... LOL... argh! so stressed recently... dio ppl also dunno how i dio.... -_- hais... sum ppl juz hav nothing to do... sian... dunno who to call... haha... hope tt things might juz turn out as i hoped... :) but reali doubt it :( love friends enermies... rather a lover a friend than an enermy... haha... lifes liddat bah... cldnt alwaes go how i expect it to be, can it? haha... sian... now readin social studies... promised ss teacher to read a portion every day... then highlight the main points... lol... can see that she reali cares... but... hais... sumtimes i dun reali see these onli whe i go hme and sit dwn and think...haha... argh... problems problems problems.... life's easy? think again...

:)

2007-03-26T21:44:00.000+08:00

hmm... waitin for her to sms back... its been more than 30mins since the last msg... haha... but wait lor, she;s juz busy ba... haha at least glad tt there's communication...? haha... tmr got gym after sch... lookin forward to it... haha... hm... kinda happy that she msg me... :) oh she smsed back... yeap... so sianned nth to do... still nid to do david's compo... dun feel like doin... tmr b4 recess then do lor... LOL... dun care him lah... hais... so quiet at home sia... parents out... bro sleepin... sis as usual nt at hme for sum reasons? hahah... sianned... :) :p bb busy smsin dun disturb me! LOL

2007-03-25T01:09:00.000+08:00

Jesse McCartney
Just So You know

shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know

things might go better or worse,,,

2007-03-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

hello? hais... so sian... hope everything can be normal or better at least... now so weird... see ppl then ignore... hais... didnt wan to... hope not to... but had to... at least for now.... :'(

miss u like crazy, even more than words can say...

2007-03-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

today i ponned sch... not reali fun though. but didnt hav to study... cool huh.. hais... but heard from crystal tt Valerie said that she walked past our class... missed it lor... hais... regret ponning... hais... damn! juz my luck... been thinkin of her the whole day... missed her loads... hope to see her tmr... haha... today got the present frm crystal, alicia, amanda, gla and juin li... its like so cool lah.. a unique shoe specially designed for me! how cool is that man! haha sum more got ''number four'' written on it... so cool !!! loved it... thanks guys... u guys r the best! friends forever...

bang the doldrums by falloutboy

2007-03-18T00:11:00.000+08:00

''And I cast a spell over the west to make you think of me
The same way I think of you''
tis line reali translates how i feel...

wowed birthdaay.... -3-

2007-03-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

today is simply the best day of my life... haha... i've nvr been this happy in my life b4... today's morn is enough to make me happy... haha... nvm... jahia noes why( dun ask her hor. ) ... but its kinda lame actuali... but it actuali can make me happy for the whole day... though during gym i failed many times and i reali cannot believe it lor... i think is too many things on my mind le... i wanna thank those who remembered my birthday and i seriously very happi... hahahahahaha... haha... every thought of her reali makes me reali happy... although nvr go out or receive alot of presents, i enjoyed myself... receiving smses and testi(s)... haha... wanna cry liao... so touched... haha... overjoyed overjoyed overjoyed... -3- 4everyou

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

friends appreciation day

2007-03-16T20:08:00.000+08:00

today... very surprised man........okok im touched ok? yea... nvr felt this way before... haha.. wierd though... reali wanna thank every1 for doin all these stuff for me except vincent who held me down... haha... jkjk... though my hair was messed up... and i was abit pissed... but im actuali very happy... :) haha... but i hate cakes... haha... nvm... reali wanna thank all the upper sec gymnasts... u guys reali made my day...
gym... yea... gym was quite ok today but was extremely tired after training... sweat until my whole shirt was wet... Mr foo's reali good coach... i reali am grateful to him... his patience and tutor has reali made me improve... haha... he's the best coach i had so far...
saw her today... dun wanna comment...(damn tt vincent) haha but actuali nth lah... lol

happy juz to look at her...

2007-03-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

hm... today? another sianned day...
saw her today in sch... onli one word's needed... 'joy'...
had gym in the morn... damn flustered today... cant seem to do things right... hais... competition approachin... hope can get top 4... dun hav much confidence now but im sure wib shaun and joey in the team... we hav a high chance... but can we take the heat? haha... i dunno man... for sure im not able to now... muz work hard... win top 4... show others tt gymnastics is not weak at all...
after tt went to amk to find yinghui... wanted to play pool, wib jane and xiaomin, at 1st but was fully damn booked... yyh and i played lan lor as usual... used qop.... damn weak lah... hais... mus practice more...
then at night called raymond out to play bball but no ball... zzz. then we went to sum where near raymond and yh's hse... ate there and went to mac... chatted abt wad to do tmr... i mean today later...( how tym flies... abt 3 more days til sch reopen) hais... still got hw... muz do... but i dun wanna... tt ss teacher... cant stand her...threats... zzz... noob teacher... but its for my good anyway... later abt 8 meeting yh, ray, david, roy, lunfei, samual still lackin 1 person... yc saed he cldnt make it... i understand... hehe... wish him good luck wib his test or audition? haha...
''Best friends
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers
And not the other way around
Racing through the city
Windows down
In the back of yellow checkered cars''
feel these lyrics were kinda cool... any1... go listen to this song by fallout boy...

''Bang The Doldrums''

reali not bad...

2007-03-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

so sian... so sianned...
A beautiful girl can make you dizzy
Like you've been drinking jack and coke all morning
She can make u feel high
Full a single greatest commodity known to man
Promise promise of a better day
Promise of a greater hope
Promise of a new tomorrow
This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl
In her smile & in her soul & the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like its gonna be ok...
picked this outta a song... reali shows how i feel and wad i feel man... haha... i dunno la... but juz feel tt way lor... nth reali is as important... but i will ask myself now and then... wad if she's gone or she izzit reachable at all? will i die? or will i juz regret and juz live in my own world where everythin seem perfect? haha... at least i am happy rite? lol....lol....hahaahahaha
listen this song... its good...

-4- Great Romance -4-

hinder

2007-03-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

wad wib u? i reali dunno wad to do... u keep askin my qtns i dunno how to reply... its like du u think we hav a chance wib each other... for myself im not reali trustin this thing u noe... and our personalities dun match at all... i cant be alwaes askin u to eat and u cant juz stop makin me mad... i've thought ovr it and its best we giv each other some more tym... and maybe get to noe each other... maybe sumthin might work out... but i hav the right to love sum1 else... i real;i dunno wad to do... everything to u sound so simple and wadever u post its like all my fault and... actuali i dun deny it... i sldnt hav taken oppitunities to know u and i dun wan u to be hurt in any way... u get me? i care abt u is not becoz i love u but bcoz i reali do care... who noes things might change later after we cleared things up alittle and who noe wad will happen... but for now. lets clear things up ok? erm..ya... errr... hais... remainin as friends for now is the best solution ba... there are tyms i dun wanna repy ur msg and i dun reali wan you to get the wrong idea abt me towards u... u following me? to be frank im liking sum1 now and i feel reali guilty and dun reali noe wads best for u and me... it reali hinders my life and i hope it wldnt hinder us as well...

sry...

2007-03-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

life... love... friends...sch...
problems problems...
hais... yea... as usual missin her... hmmm... holidays hav come... so sian... alwaes felt so alone... family are juz a fucking bunch of ppl who didnt reali care abt me... my dad adored my sis and my mom treats my bro as gold... i dunno man... hias... hate my family so much...
hmm.. her... yea..her... havent been seein much of her recently... but shes alwaes in my heart... close my eye is her i see... cant stop thinkin abt her...
btw sry hor... screwed u ... u noe who im tokin abt...sze hoe... haha... reali sry... was damn pissed... but i noe i stung u more then u stung me... reali sry...
as a friend i gotta tell u that we are not for each other... u dun even wanna talk to me... i tried means and ways to try to noe u... but u shun away and i juz dunno how u wan it to be... i juz dun understand u... i wanted to meet u and talk to u... but u didnt attempt to do so... lovin sum1 is not tt way... u get me? hope u reali understand... everytime i see ur post... i reali get so upset... like i did u wrong and i dunno wad to do... the best thing is that u try to forget me bah... there are much better boys out there waitin for u... im juz not gd enough for u... and i dun even noe u tt well... hope u get wad i mean and im very sorry...

overboard...

2007-03-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

today seems to be the coolest day of mah life... watched the vball match phs 'c' gals match... reali wowed me... haha... she was so zai lah... omg... unbelievable... in fact the best... maybe its abit overboard but... haha... so happy they won... lol... thx to my 'beloved jrs.' its like a 'muz' know now lor... juniors... hiasss, 'thx' guys needed that... but shes like so cool lor...
hias...bad part of todae is my amaths test... who wld hav known... i got a F9... 3/40 !!! OMG lor... studied VERY hard for that 3 marks.... reali was tough gettin those 3 marks... wth lah...
haha... but anywae seeeing her literally cancels all the hurtful things tt has happened to me...

thx for the memories....

2007-03-04T08:23:00.001+08:00

FALL OUT BOY LYRICS

"Thnks Fr Th Mmrs"

I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sends you to me without wait)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for (except for)
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand (one night stand off)

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

One night and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

god damn arms race....

2007-03-04T00:51:00.000+08:00

woot~ juz came back frm falloutboy concert... so cool lah... hehe... but i think its a waste of money... we reached the expo at round 7? i think... then we were like waitin at this hall where everybody was like crowding ovr... they were shouting lah... i, mc and eugene tot tt maybe it was a meeting session or sumthin but... it wasnt... zzzz... then we went into the hall after abt like 1/2 hr...
at the start there was this malay band performing on stage which was like ok at first... then next was sore-loser.... which was a little annoying for me... WHERE'S FALLOUTBOY? haha... and there were like this bunch of ppl who were pushin each other outta fun at first then bacame a brawl... so irritating lah... i, eugene and mc were lyk trying to siam... eugene got elbowedd several tyms and i even got punched in my stomach...so fucking pieced off lah... chants can be heard GO HOME LAH... haha... then waited for abt 45mins then fallout boy came... kinda piece off actuali...
but their performance was fantastic lor... haha... ''Golden'', ''dance, dance'', ''sugar we're goin dwn'' haha... rocking the hse dwn lah... but there was this hot chick in front of me who was like so hardcore jumping that she stepped on my foot like a MILLION tyms already... zzz... on account that she's a chick... i wldnt pursue the matter... haha... stood for abt 3.5hrs... so tired now... hais... wonder hows she doin... sian lor...
kk tired liao... will update soonzzz ......

do she noe i existed?

2007-03-02T20:33:00.000+08:00

saw her abt 14 tyms today... haha... sound obsessive rite? darn rite i am... juz by sitting there lookin at her seems satisfying to me already... now the onli thing i wish is to see her... i mean she's like so cool lah... ideal girl for any boy... she's juz the gal im lookin for... im like missing her so much lah... zzz
btw... today... killer paper... darn pen no ink... did onli abt 3 qtns... fail liao lah... haha... im hopeless rite? haha... used to bein an asshole already... hais...
tmr goin to the fallout boy conceryt wib mc and eugene.... it wld be so cool lah... haha...
thinkin abt her...
hm... will she notice me? will she? hmm... do she even noe i existed? zzz

ironic

2007-03-01T22:09:00.000+08:00

today has been okae for me... haha... feel so happy after getting tt pic.... anywae thx val... haha... being so into her now... desperate maybe.... i doubt she even noe me lah... hais... but on the other hand... she might not notice me at all... haha.. joke rite? but life's liddat ba... hope i will succeed tis tym... alwaes wanted to find true love.. hope she might be the one... but who am i kiddin? haha...

BlahBlah™

thanks for the memories. though they werent so great

13o9o8

3oo8o8

29o6o8

i miss you...

i love u baby<3

back

wish u knew how i felt..

:D but D:

some1 has to giv and some1 has to take,,, i guess thats wad mantains a relationship. both cant be pullin at the same time bah,,,

cant slpp!!! :DDD

boredom! as alwaes...

monday madness.

saturday.

i lurve yooo...

Sunday!

Quiz

cu san :DDDD

long time its been...

:(

fuck this little world of mine man. i mean seriously...

headache

didnt mean to... didnt want to...

owe money pay money

no hair lah

thanks

My Future's In My Hands

inlovingmemory

21Siaobailong™

missing u like crazy...

question...

3H chalet '07

juz want u to noe

her birthday... 4th

......

hais...wad to sae?

it doesnt bother me...

Ryan Cabrera - Shine On Lyrics

Ur Beautiful..

pain and suffering...

20th April 2007

chibai...

know...

probs...

hurting...

friends

she smiles :) i dont :(

bad times... where are the good ones !?!?

juz a falloutboy....

i reali wanna cry...

sianed fun day....

saturday morning...

:)

Jesse McCartneyJust So You know

things might go better or worse,,,

miss u like crazy, even more than words can say...

bang the doldrums by falloutboy

wowed birthdaay.... -3-

friends appreciation day

happy juz to look at her...

''Bang The Doldrums''

-4- Great Romance -4-

hinder

sry...

overboard...

thx for the memories....

god damn arms race....

do she noe i existed?

ironic

Jesse McCartney
Just So You know